Mom died today, seven years ago. Sometimes the anniversary passes lightly, and sometimes more heavily. Today I feel sad.
Dad wrote to me: "Ellie reports that Grammy used to say that when the
cicadas started up in Summit,
Mary Anne’s birthday was near. Summer—August, really—was her time: her birthday
[well, July 31], her wedding day, and her death. She liked summer’s heat, the
extended light, the ocean vacations, and the freedom they all seemed to
suggest. The official midsummer—as in solstice, June 21—is well before August,
but in some ways August seems the height of summer and therefore 'mid' summer,
if poetic license is allowed. The picture of Mary Anne in this poem is, I hope,
true to some elements of her spirit, as I see them, but there is much more, as
all who knew and loved her understand."
He wrote a beautiful, beautiful poem for Mom: "Of Mary Anne, My Midsummer Night's Dream." You can read it here, or just below:
Her bearing regal, luminous even-
a midsummer night’s dream. I will never
get over her, a midsummer vision
in gold lame’, flattened sandals ever
slapping insouciantly down some stairs,
devil may care the details—dust, my faults.
I conjure her presence, renaissance faire
here where I walk, green grassed under tree vaults
in midsummer late day light. Evening sun
she seems to me, her possibilities
poised again, after her night in homespun,
like Cinderella to dance in Belize
at dawn with a kind prince on whose empire
the sun never finally sets. I would
follow wherever she goes, to admire
her peerless lips, steal a kiss if I could
for the taste of the earthy gloss on them,
like the musk of midsummer’s dusk, humid
and salt. We were never more one than when
dancing—neither of us cared which one led.